Raj ko Raaz rahne do....Part 1....

I did not wanted to write this article but I did not have much option because I am running out of ideas my dear friend RAJ. it is from our GANG side.

I want to put a curious case of RAJ. As far as who know him more than me if u disagree please just mention it in the end of the note.

I think the RAJ I met first time in college is totally opposite of what he is today. I still remember he used to always come late in class usually 20 min. late in first class or in second class. He used to sit with his best buddy in the first bench of right hand side. He used to dress up in formals and the best part was his specks. He used to wear specks and he used to look studious. Only Raj dares to ask the economics question in Shefali mam class. As Raj used to ask the question from Shefali mam, the whole class used to think “lo ab to kewal RAJ h economics samajh payega”.

This is period when we know him as a classmate with longest name i.e. RAJ RAJESHWAR MANI TRIPATHI. Oh sorry this is not his full name add MAALIK in starting. MAALIK was removed from his name just because there were not enough blocks in the 10 class registration form.

Then JAB WE MET, It created an everlasting LEGENG in the IEC HISTORY. I, Raj, Jayant, Nisheeth became best buddies in a span of few days. There was something which clicked between all of us and created the everlasting memories of our life. The thing changed when he became friend with us was surprising. He got his most popular name “JAADOO” given by someone whom I donot want to mention in my blog. He stopped asking question from Shefali mam. He stopped using specks, he changed his parking from first seat to back bench which was controlled by us. He was different Raj now, Raj which we all love till now and will love till he leaves this world.

The funniest thing he did was in the first and most challenging presentation of our MBA life. He was the sutradhar of our presentation. He has to say opening line but in front of audience and Director he forgot everything. He called jayant as saifi and the worst part I was forgotten and my name was given to someone else but still I admire the courage to get ready for presentation in 5 Min. when all the so called Biggies of our class backed out. To stand there on stage was his achievement and he will acknowledge it.

He has such a depth in his voice that will make you to listen what he is saying and sayari in his voice will make you go gaa gaa. I think we have shared lots of his sayaris in his soulfull voice.

Few words which he made common or say Raj special are. For example let’s say “JUST FRIEND”, almost all of us will agree that this is Raj original. If you are curious what is just friend. I have answer but I do not want to tell you. It is a friendship stage where you never complain and never explain. I am confused is this FRENDSHIP or what.

ITC, I mention this because he will give his entire business example from this organization. Sometimes I wonder if he knows about ITC more than even its managers. 

Before I wind up this part I want to say something to Raj. You are one of the best humans or friend any one could have. The people who have you as a friend are lucky blokes. You may not be perfect and nobody is in this world everybody has his own weakness. But to be like you is not every one capability. You never have to be asked for help just because you are always there to help out your friend. But still people do not understand Raj, the do not know what it is like to RAJ. I do and I do not want to be like you.

This is first part of RAJ AISA KYU HAI. It’s not easy to define all about Raj in just one part. So till the next time wait and enjoy.

for RAJ ...
Izaatie, nafratie, Sohratie aur inayatie
sab kuch ek sa nahi rahta
aj main ho jaha kal koi aur tha
 ye b ek duar hai aur woh b ek daur tha...

Why I hate facebook these days

Well I joined facebook and orkut in my graduation time around 5 year back. I got so much interested in the social word that it used to take my most of spare time. Well today when I look back, I have closed down my orkut account (well nobody uses orkut these days) and now I am using facebook even more lesser than the blogging. Is it because I have reached a saturation level or maybe there is nothing new I found on these days on these sites.

Let’s go back to the beginning time of the social networking. It was good to join facebook or orkut because it connected us to lots of lost friend of school, college. We used to look after all new update from friends, family and others. We used to comment on every new photo of any one we know, good bad and even some time ugly. But spirit was always to stay connected. Then Gradually I stopped using orkut. The reason was it was leaving me no space for myself. The photos were commented, and with comment there used to thousands of endless question from friends, family. Facebook was still different, I started using it more because my fewer friends were here and I can express myself.  People start reading my blog and start commenting on it, It made me cautious of what I am writing. Before I post any update I used to ask myself, It will hurt someone or not, it is good enough or not. Well these things you start to think when you become too much of cautious about yourself.

Every update, photo and comment made me more and more cautious about what I am saying. One day one of my friends asked me about why I write a blog like that, it is not good. It made me more cautious about what I am saying on these sites. But soon it all became a routine in life.

Then saturation point arrived; now day’s facebook has become a S@#$ place. People either like photo or single line comment. “Nice pic”, “Great” and blahh blaah. Well It will not end here, this type of things goes on and on. No one update what they feel like, it is either CCP or some time it is even worse than that.

It brings to me my question why I joined this facebook or any social networking site. Just to get all this crap in my profile, obliviously not. But in the end I needed to decide how much I can take. I shut my orkut account and even start using my facebook less. I put my focus on my blogging, let’s hope this place will not become the mess facebook and orkut has become. Now days it not about how much you can update, it is to update how much you take from these things.

P.S.: Everything has a Saturation point. Either you reach it and move on to next part or you find new things to move in next level.

I love you…like I hate you

This is how one of my close used to describe his feeling. He loves someone because he hates her. Now you must be confused? Either he can love someone or he can hate someone, but how can he do both at the same time. I was also confused about this for a long time, till recently I got some clarity about this and that prompted me to write about this.

Thing happened like this in his life, He used to initially like that girl. Then he started to hate that girl because his friend started to hate her. Then after sometime he realized that he loved her but then how to admit that in front of his friend. So he hates her in front of his friend but inside his heart and when his friends are not near he loved that girl.

Well things seem so simple with a little piece of paragraph, but life is not easy as it seems. Well she tells her friends that he meets her and he denies every week that he meets her. So as a friend we are confused to whom we believe. Either to believe to friend who is more close to me or to the truth which I can see in front of my eye? Well this is really disturbing thing in life when some of your close friend leave you in such a state. I am no saint but believe me I never ditched my friend because I wanted to make someone feel better. Worse you say to that person to not disclose this kind of information. But then also if your friends came to know about that, what will be you credibility? I know people will argue that it is someone personal like and you don’t have any right to ask any question. My argument will be always either make friend from your heart or leave them and don’t feel sh@#t about it. Why carry a dead relation, when you know it is dead.

Well problem is you trying to make one relationship work with lie to others. I know everybody does it but sometime you have to trust other and truthful to other in order other could be with you. I never said it is bad but I think if you lose your friend in life then matter how hard you try you may never get them back until you make new friends. And making friend in any place is more difficult as you grow old.

Some time you try to be over smart in life. You tend to think, how come they will know about it. This is how life works out some time. But making friend is not easy but losing them is quite easy. Well they will realize these things when they will lose something which they are quite sure they can’t lose.

Well in life you hardly make good friend who trust you. But that trust barrier Is broken in any relation it is hard to get it back. 

Being Selfish…

How many time you would have heard people say to you, “You are so selfish”. Few times or lots of time, it don’t make any difference. I have heard this thing so many times myself in life that it is like any other word to me. It makes no difference to me to know whether I am selfish or not. Let me tell you the real thing, in life everybody is selfish for his or her goodness. Till you are in good terms with other one it is fine but once good terms are gone, you are deemed as selfish.

“Being Selfish” is not bad thing at all. It might be used in the negative sense but who mind to use it in life, certainly I don’t mind it. If we look at the decision we have been made in the life from the school time to college, the friend we choose, the life we live, even the mobile we use. All of us have been selfish in life somewhere somehow. We lie, we cheat and also betray sometime to live life as we want. So what is wrong with it?

I don’t know, but sometime in our life we have to be selfish. Let’s be honest, who will not cheat to get 100 marks? I think lots of us will, someone will not but then they will be selfish is some other way. In life we take some decision which may sound to other as selfish but in reality if there would be in same position they would do the same.

Well I am cool with “Being Selfish” status sometime. It takes out the burden of being good to others. You can do what you really want to do not what other expects you to do. Some time you need to enjoy the “Being Selfish” Status…..

You've always told me "Follow your heart"

One of most heart touching poem. I know every one say to follow your heart but sometime it is hard to explain why to do so.

You've always told me "Follow your heart"
But I wouldn't know where to start
My heart is telling me to pursue something
That would break the world's rules of living

You've always told me "Follow your heart"
Helps me when everything has gone dark
If I do what my heart tells me to do
I wouldn't be ready to lose you

You've always told me "Follow your heart"
I can't do that, I don't want us to be apart
I can't see our friendship ending
But I can't go on pretending

You've always told me "Follow your heart"
But will my heart lead us apart?
Or will my heart bring us together?
I would want to be with you forever

You've always told me "Follow your heart"
One day, I will and I know where to start
I don't understand why God would let us meet
If there was no way for us to be...MEET...

April fool Banaya....(All fools day).....

First of all I want to wish all my readers and fellow writers a very happy fool’s day. Well this is only day in whole year when you can say fool to any one and yet they will not take it personally as they could have taken it on other day. We think of few smart pranks to play with so we can make fool other, but due to social networking sites and SMS world things are going to funnier and more twisters this year.

I tried few tricks last year on other but they all failed as my as usual plan. Well I don’t know what to do this year. I don’t have plan for this year. I told one of my close friends about this thing. She gave me the best Idea from his brain after a long time, usually she only give his stupid idea about even I don’t about.

She said to me, “Well saifi look you don’t have to lie to make fool. You can simply say the truth about yourself and other person and later can say it was prank”

“Well I got your stupid idea but how that helps in making fool, and what if they believed on that point then”, I replied to her.

“Look saifi, as per my thinking usually people don’t expect to say truth on this day. So if you say something that is truth but you still can’t tell anyone. You can tell and then see their reaction and decide about what to do”, for the first time in her life she was making sense to me.

I gave a long thought to this point and realize this is a good point. Look nobody expect us to make confession of our most untold stories, so even if you accept something to your friend after seeing their reaction you can tell them it is true or not. Well starting from GF confession to making a point about someone behavior. Well I am thinking about to try this but I am not sure about it will work on not.

If you can’t do anything from this then simply share this song on facebook and let other make you fool. And enjoy this fool day. Well around 2:30 Am I can’t get any better idea than this.

College calling ....Again!!!!!! ( Alumni meet)

Recently I received invitation from our college for the Alumni meet. I have yet not decided whether I will able to go over there or not. I don’t know but still I have not made my mind up about this situation. Some of my college friends are super excited about to go back to college once more.

When you leave college, there are thousands of people out there with the same degree you have; when you get a job, there will be thousands of people doing what you want to do for a living. But you are the only person alive who has sole custody of your life and what you do with it. Well so lets check out some my points which I found about Alumni meet.

this is only thing on which I missed out on my college life.

What to expect in the College alumni meet ( For first time visitors like me):

1.  You meet with all of your college friends, juniors, seniors and faculty. Well ideally this is what is supposed to happening over in the meet but I doubt it because usually these type of function are boring to talk about you fun life. You can talk about good experiences and Blah..Blah….
2.  Free lunch. This point I thought off after seeing Jayant. If you can ever give him any reason to visit college Alumni meet, there can’t be any better that this.
3.  A proper weekend with friends. Well those who work from Monday to Saturday can only understand this pain. Well you can’t have a better chance of proper weekend with all your old friends.
4. One of the major reasons why you should visit alumni meet is to socialize little bit. Well I am terrible at it. I miss birthday date, parties I hate to go; I skip call and now days even I am not found on facebook and twitter. This may give you lot of time to socialize and even to gossip a lot about class, love life of other and you hate towards it.
5. Time to show off. Well boys and girls this is time to show off what you have got yourself new in the wardrobe since you left the college. How much you have invested of your salary in yourself. Well boys will be focusing on Blackberry suits with a latest business phone. And girls will try new hairstyle and even they will go shopping for this meet. Strangely even if I decide to visit, I will be in my casual best. A jeans, shirts and hopefully someday a Guitar. No shopping, no blackberry suites ( I hate those formal suites, it make you feel like being in the line of retirement)
6. Well if you love you college and really want to visit but you can’t find the reason. You can visit the college and as per my sources there might be some gifts for you also. So be prepared to take the gifts.

a college pic when every one was on holidays...:)

Well after some of the positive lists why you should visit College alumni meet, let’s make a note why we should we avoid this type of social event:

1. Well going to back to college after few months it does not sound good. Well even if you reach over there last time I was told there were only less than 50 students last time. So either go in a group of friends or skip the event.
2. Well how hard you try not to admit it but these events are boring and are only means something once you achieve something in professional life. Well I have just started Career what I can say about my experiences.
3. Anti social and anti group, well I still remember what will happen if one of My close friend end being alone in the Alumni meet with Dealing king or PK bhai.. Well I think one or other will be frustrated.
4. Well there will be again same question of where you work, job profile, salary and next. Come on nobody ask these question these day even my Grand ma don’t ask these types of questions.

Even thought there are more pro than cons in visiting Alumni meet (Just because I didn’t wanted to name few more). I am still in confusion about it. Well I hope it end up being a annual event with a fix date so it can be really helpful in planning. 

P.S.: Well while writing this blog I was strictly advice to avoid the controversy, I thought “JALNE DE…oH hooo JALNE DE”……and this called pure "SAIFIZZMMMMMMM"...

It is tear for the love we had

Well this is one of my most liked poem. This one I read in the book few year back randomly. Well I am sure you will also like this poem if you ever had felt a heartbreak.

It is tear for the love we had,

or a tear for the love that left,

it is tear for those fights over milkshake,

or a tear for this ugly heartbreak,

it is a tear for i thought you were the one,

or a tear for by my side there is none,

i understand it didn't go well,

those tree couldn't hold our name for long,

i understand that sitting under the stars,

has lost it magic and its charm,

i understand that all i sought for,

is now shattered to piece like glass,

and so now i have to take it in my face,

and have to walk apart!,

I UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I WANT TO STAY, BUT

NOW I'LL HAVE TO WALK AWAY.......

P.S.: After reading this poem I felt how much I hate it but now I'll have to walk away....

The college Equations....

As my college comes nears towards its end. My affection toward college has increased but toward classes has decreased. I do not know how to explain it but just you can say classes are sound like hangover time.

It is just that when your first semester starts you see classes as a time to learn and to be comfortable in new world. You always see this is your chance and you should make best use of it. Teachers seem to be your friend and you try to hear each and every word said by them. You go library in search of the entire new book related to you subject to gain advantage over other student. You always ask the difficult question in the class, even if it not directly or indirectly related to your subject. You don’t bunk the class or even try to do it.

The first semester of any MBA college seems to be so scoolish, but that’s what it is all about. After the first battle, then comes the second semester. This is always different from first semester. You attendance dips a bit. The last bench is booked by few good fellows of class (like I used to have one for myself). Even though you know the answer, you are not first to raise your hand. Visit to library decreases like temperature in winter but it is replaced by canteen visits. Your assignments are either copied or submitted late. You even stop making subject wise note. New funda is to just get a photo copy of your friend notes.

In second semester you are more interested in which of you senior is placed where instead of focusing on your own summer internship. You are more worried about your job prospects even if it is one year away.How could I forget, the new bonding in class. Some love birds are found and some jolly good friends. Friendship has an all new meaning in life. Living 24/7 is just becomes part of your life. Late night parties, some drinking and dancing all seems so good. Expenses surpass your bank balance. Phone bill rises to a new level and yet you think you talk so little in ratio of others.

Hey, still I am missing so many things. I think this will continue to come in. after all I can now only remember my college days like this.

P.S.: This blog is written it when i was in the college...:)

Accidently In friendship ……..

While I was in my home town one of my friend told me his friendship which I am trying hard to write down. All the time I was sitting idle and seeing lots of stars in the sky. It was all so bright in the sky and I miss those days in Delhi especially in the summer nights.

A boy harry and girl sally met in college (Ideally title should be when harry met sally). They were from different background, different region. Only thing they have common,there dream to make big in college and life. They started their college not knowing each other for.But some time you come to know some one accidentally. First time they had a word about some project was about after 4 month of college and they become the project partner. They know they can’t be friend not because they don’t like each other but they know they can’t be friend as their background difference doesn’t allow this.

Well who care for these things in the college. They met few more time in the college, class and also in canteen. They both made some good friend in the new college and new life. They hit the ground running with new friends. Their chemistry was great but they were not friends. Well the friend in their group were mostly couples. So it gave them extra time to be together. It made them understand each other more but still they were not friends. They went together in few parties and in the fresher party as well. Their entire friend was thinking as they were couple but for them they were still not friends. They used to have late night talk and lots of chat about their problems in college, life and friendship. They share lots of thing but only about college life. Both of them used to trust each other, help each other in notes, studies but still for them they were still not friends.

First semester holidays arrived faster than anyone of them would have thought. They all went away to homes with the promise of be back in few weeks and to be in touch in these weeks. Well exactly opposite happened with harry and sally. Both of them not made any promise. sally said to harry not to call him in these weeks. Not even messages can be sent. Well harry was fine with it initially. All of them left for holidays. And yet they were not friends.

Harry arrived in home after the first 6 month in the college. He was happy to be back in home. He was meeting with his old friends. First night he missed something in his life but he was not sure of what. All his friends were buys in something or other. He wanted to talk to someone. For the first time he was missing sally. He could not call sally and what bother him most was is sally also missing him? He was not sure about that. He wanted to know about her more than anything. How is She, what would be she doing? He picked up his phone thousand times and dialed her number and cut it again. He knows sally has said not to call her and he don’t want to offend her.

He gathered some courage, picked up his phone and type message. “How are you? I am missing my friend sally. Can we be friends?” He pressed send button. No reply was received for next few hours. He  was anxious about the reply. What would be her reply, has she read the message, why has she not replied, at least some reply can be send. Every message received in his phone he was thinking about it should be sally message. At around midnight he received message from sally. “I am fine. Don’t message me again as I said to you till we reach the college”.

It broke harry heart. His all dreams were gone from his eyes. She does not like him as friend? He is so bad. His thought were getting wild. He was only thinking about it has to be me.

He received another message in his phone. He opened the message. His smile was back on face after reading the message. “Well Mr. harry as per your friendship is concern you have to treat me as I am to missing you as my friend but no message OK.”

He was smiling and was on the cloud 9. For the first time he changed his name in this mobile as “Friend sally”. And for the records they were friends for the first time.

He was waiting for the day their college will open again and hoping his new friend sally will also be thinking the same. Friendship can bring lots of happiness in your life.

Felling happy...:)

The village diary…. (Part 1)

Well usually I write about lots of my current life and lot about my friend life in this blog. When I was at my home in small village in Allahabad I decided to write about that place from where I belong to and where my roots are. The village diary is a collection of my small memories about my village and life over there, which made me what I am today.

My village is almost 25 KM away from main city of Allahabad. The Village name as HATWA, I don’t know about the story behind the name of my village but I found that name unusual. If you will try to find my village even on Google map, it will be really hard because it does not show over there. Well my village has nothing especial to talk to about. Nor we have any special monuments or nor village has any special talent to talk about but yes if I can say something about my village it has some pure heart people living over there. It is located around somewhat 1.5 KM away from the main road, and to reach my home from main road either take a long walk or have your own vehicle.

Well the road, it has not been repaired for almost a decade. Last time I saw the road to be repaired was when I was in school. This time when I saw the road it has more holes in the road then in the field. And yet nobody ever complained about it. I was about to land in my hometown Allahabad in the railways station and it was little bit weird feeling that how long has been away from the city and yet it seemed like the same. One famous poet said about Allahabad that if you put one basket of fruits in the street of Allahabad and after one year you will find that fruit basket in the same place because this city never changes. Well that was about 50 year ago; only thing that not changed in the city from that time was city name and Sangam.

I walked outside of the railway station from Platform No. 1 to take auto or tempo to reach home. Well if you don’t know Tempo is other name of Shared auto. Allahabad has not changed much I can think on my mind. It was same crowd, people talking to each other about politics even though they might not know each other apart from taking a sip of tea with each other in a shop. Every one asking me about me what I need tempo or taxi, It puzzled me because being lived in Allahabad for so long it was strange to be asked for auto and taxi. I responded in a confused state of mind, “Sorry I don’t need that”. I was looking for the tempo stand from where I can find the right transportation for my home and that to in cheaper way. Well who mind to travel 20 KM in shared auto and that to in 10 bucks? Well surely I don’t.

Some pan shop wala helped me to know from where I can find the auto for my destination. In Allahabad if have to ask for a route usually I ask the Pan wale Bhaiya because they are the best resource to get the right information. For me there were few more surprises over there. The entire autos were standing in the straight line and in arranger manner. It was new thing for me as they never used to stand still few months back and more so fight with each other for getting more and more passengers. But this time they all have formed a union or something in which they all get to take passengers by their number. It helps them to at least make sure all of them get proper business at the end of day. I got myself in the auto which was about to leave and have seat for two passengers. I decided to sit in the right of the driver this was only place where seat was available. This was only my second auto ride in Allahabad in last 7 years. After school my Mom gifted me bike, so I never ever traveled with auto or public transport after that.

From my past experience in Allahabad and what I have heard from my Sis on phone that it will not be easy ride because of two reasons. One was that I was sitting in auto and second was the roads of Allahabad are not in a good condition at this time. My journey started in next 5 min. and it was new experience for me. I was looking after the every change I can notice in the city whether it was in the color of the city or the traffic chaose or the new building and the new shops that I could see. Well for me the journey was getting better and better but not for others. They started complaining to the driver about the slow driving and he could only say, “ Sahab dheeme chalaoob tabhoo log kahaiye aur tej chaloob to jeka lagi osse mar kaaab. Humka to adat ho gaiyi hai, tabhai to itni tej gana chalait hai hum”. He was seemed to big fan of Bhojpuri song and that to Nirhuwa rikshawala. For a change I was aslo enjoying that song.

He asked me again, “Sahab aap naye ho ka sahar ma ki bahut dinawa baad laute ho”. I could only give only slight smile to him and replied. “Nahi humao yahi ke rahe wale hai par aaj kaal bahar raahat hai kaam se”. He was more that amazed to see that I too can speak this language which I think he was not expecting from me. 

“Sahab aapho bahut achi bolat ho apni bhasaa, chala bahar raahat ho par apan bhasa to bol leet ho”. I was faltered by his compliment and by the time I reached to my destination I could say to him, “Bhaiyaa tohar ganwa humka bahut acha laag baa, kehke tu sunat rahoo ba aur paisai kitna bha ihya tak ke”. Now that was the finest I can speak this language.

“Paisa to 10 rupiya bha Sahab aur ganaa to niruhawa ka raha, tohka to kahoo b mil jai”. He said in cheerful voice. I was just thinking well I can get some of these songs from Raj bhaiya but thinking about hearing this song in our room was just not the option I can think off. I gave the amount to bhaiya and just started to my journey to home and I am still 1.5 Km and small distance away from my home.

 P.S.: Well being in village always help you to learn without all the Gadgets. As Electricity is found only for hours over there.

So what is your future plan?

Well if you go back home after 6 months the most obvious question which is asked by most of your friend and some of your family members, “So, What is your future plan?”.

Now I am usually found this question annoying and at time out of context as well. After I finished my 12^th from that time most of the people whom I known used to ask me, what next? And I could only answer like college, study what else. Well after I finished my college again the same question was asked and I again answered MBA, enjoy my life and may be something more adventure. This question was just turning out to be like Royal segram AD, “Have you made it large” and you think when this thing will end.

This time around when I was at home, again everybody was interested in the job I do, life I live and last but least, “So, what is your future plan”. These questions irritated me most rather than missing electricity and my phone in my home. Well if you have just started working and came back to home for a break you will easily find one or two lady from your neighborhood asking your mom about your marriage plan. All you wanted to sound out to them I am not interested for next 5 years and please leave me alone.

Well as I am not a very good planner about my life. Usually I can’t plan how I can spend my weekend leave alone the future and job. Well I guess something is more enjoyed when they are not planned and planning doesn’t suites me. As I know execution part will be always missing from my plan.

The only best thing about these questions comes when you know what you want to say. You know your relative only ask question to tell their children where they are and where we are. They will have a dinner with you and ask thousand question as if you were invited to chat show of “FOOD WITH COUSINS” and if this is not finished they will make you say all those funny line which are not so funny either but yet you have to laugh on it. The most irritating part comes when they all will tell you some story of your ancient days which you have forgotten but they will remember it every single point of it.

As far I am concern I have rehearsed myself well to give all the answers. I think it better to sleep at home and read lots of books with delicious food rather than wasting your time with answering these irritating questions.

P.S.: Well even if you like it or not these question will never leave you till your retirement. And for marriage question please never smile in front of any aunty otherwise your bachelorhood will be doomed very soon If your mom start hearing that aunty.