Searching my philosophy of life

Recently one of my friend asked me, What is your philosophy of life? I could not answer him at that time.  I thought hard but there was no definite philosophy of life at this time. It is like living a life without knowing what I am going to do it.

Few years back when I was in college there was definiteness about my thought, philosophy of life. How to live life, stay and what I want from life. But in recent years there have been lots of incident in my life which have affected me and my thought process. Either it has been friend’s relationship, breakups and or some melody drama of friends. All of these have left some impact on my thought process which is now at a crossroad. I have lost that clearness of outline which it once processed in mind.

My early approach in life has been always been simple. I just solve the problem as it comes in life, never thought about the life that will come up later. It was like live in this movement. But in last few years my thought has been influenced by the people who live me with me, friends, and family, at some extent religion also. Now my thinking is not as simple as it used to be after I joined the job. The innocence in my thought process is lost I think.

Now coming back to my philosophy point, it is doesn’t get in any person in just one day or say month. It is always influenced by your early life. Every person life goes through some philosophical changes over the year starting from his childhood. In childhood our philosophy is influenced by our family and religion. At that time these two are most important thing which influences your thinking about all the right and wrong in life.

In you teenage or say college life you the most important life you live mostly with friends. Here you are mostly influenced by the group or the friends you have in life. They somehow make you think about the way to live the life. Either it is about bunking the class or studying overnight in the home. Apart from that Movies also affect your thought process over the period of time.

Then you reach to you career life. Where your thinking process gets a 360 degree spin, what you have believed till life and what the life is practice at that time. All you love, life and dreams is about take a toll on your thought process. You will do what you belief but it will not take you anywhere in life.  It is a mid life thought process crisis where you are not sure about what you are doing is right or not. You start to listen to every other person and think he knows more than you about life because he lives better life than you.

I am not sure about my future and how my philosophy will shape up but one thing is sure, each day of life is leaving a mark on this deep thinking process. Either it is good or bad but they all influence by them. Some time even a bad though fascinates me about why there is so much fuss about it, when everything is so simple in life.

May be future will have some more positive impact on me about love and life. I am just searching all these facts which are hidden somewhere in life. I don’t realize but my philosophy of life is changing by each day.

The EQUATION of my college days And Its PARAMETERS....PART 3 (From Zero to Hero)

There was one incident in my college life which change my whole college life. That incident was first semester result in which I topped. From a zero in Allahabad university to batch semester topper in IEC and the awesome part was that I was first guy after few years to do so and then only song i can think of was this.....

Frankly I was the last student expected to top the class. To be fair I was also never expecting that result from myself. I screwed 2 or 3 papers in examination badly and still end up getting highest marks. Some say that is luck and I say luck with right chance.

In my friends group I was with least attendance, my assignments were always late and apart from economics no other subject was my favorite. I hated organization behavior and stats, both papers I screwed badly. My aim was always to pass with decent marks not a single time this thought came in my mind that will score highest marks in class. In my whole life I have always thought that scoring highest marks is not good for health. Maybe I never wanted to reach on top and I was happy in my own space.

After result it was whole new experience for me. Just everybody start thinking you are intelligent, which I am not. Friends and people who know you start thinking, how the hell he can top when he was least studying and one of the laziest persons in the world. I think they were right at that time. That made them think had he has been studying while we were sleeping. In reality I was the one sleeping most and studying less. People feel jealous of you, your comments are taken more personal especially regarding study and yet you fell " I don't care about you" Attitude.

The most irritating part was when everybody started calling me SAIFI SIR. I used to think, hold on man, I am just 21 year old and SAIFI SIR Sound makes me feel like 31 year old. But to be franks I enjoyed every bit of FAME in that period. Now everybody knows me for right reason and in my whole life it has been rare.

My stint at top was short one but one of the memorable one. I didn’t deserve to be there just because I never that hard to be there. Others have work hard and believe me very hard. They all studied late night, attended full class. Where was I all that time, sleeping and relaxing?

But this incident taught me one thing. Never ever in life underestimate yourself in whatever you do. Some time underdogs also perform well and just believe in you. Yet I exceeded my all expectations.

Lastly I would like to thank all the friends because of whom I achieved that thing. Nisheeth bhai ( a bade bhai, roommate and one who know all about how I topped),  jayant ( he was one the deserving candidate of topping the semester and I toppes just because of his questions), raj( he has similar story to me just he topped from down), kshama( she always say why you write and yet she is first one read and say nice one with her cutest simle), smita( only friend whom I have irritated most in first semester) and most important my family.

Saifi Shahid

Me in my memories

First of all this Saturday was the best day of my life. Till morning I was quite happy with all of my best achievement in my life but what gives me more pleasure was the news about our blog. It was around night when my friend and culprit in writing and updating the blog send me that our blog is taken noted by Google and there are some topic which are searched and our blog s on first page. Now that is what we call Awesome.

Today I want to share one of my past life experience when I was student in class. At that time I was thin and small boy who have lot of insecurities and lots of fear inside his mind. One of my friend who used to be lot fitter and little bit healthy than me, He suggested me to do exercise in morning time. My school was a private school in my village but still it was nice school (Don’t go by name of Village school). I was more so thinking about his suggestion about doing morning exercise and one day I decided that I will go for morning walk and will do little bit exercise with little bit of running, jumping and some stand up and down.

That whole night I could not sleep properly, whole time I was asking my Pita ji

“Pita Ji what is the time?” and he said “So jaa abhi to bahut raat hai”. And yet I could not sleep at that time, all I was thinking about was my morning exercise. I wake up early in the morning around 4 am. As my family member don’t knew about my this plan so I have to do some makeup for it, I made clone of myself by putting cloths of me and walked out of home slowely-2. It was bright sliver night; Half moon was bright and night was towards its end. I could hear the voice on my every step as there was pin drop silence in the street. I was so happy that finally it is my first day of exercise but deep in my heart there was a fear of darkness and the animal that can make run faster than bullet.

Yes I was afraid of “DOG”, but I said to my heart they will not hurt you. They were barking but still I made a good face to think that they might be barking on something else. As I started walking towards the field the dog started following me and barking more and more. They were just behind me; I decide to run otherwise it will be my first and last outing at this time. I ran and all the dogs were behind me, I thought I out run even sprinter that day but still dogs were following me. As the dogs were coming near I decided to jump the Big dig that was there in field to save and I think that was my last option. Either I will cross that and will be safe or I will be in it broke one two bone but still then also I will be safe from dogs.

I jumped the dig and thank to god the dog stopped, finally the stopped and go away. My heart was still beating like a bullet train and I could hear each and every beat of it. This was my first lesson while seeking for health I learnt about life. It is good to have health but life is all that matters. Today I am happy to be thin boy but I learned it is all about living. Even great Darvin said “In this world only fittest survive, no matter you are thin or fat, powerfull or weak. Only the best wins in the end”.

For whom we fear these things come first in life.

By Deepak “Rousa”