Confused love and Lovers...

Why do most love stories end with great difficulty? Why do we always claim that he or she cheated in love and caused indelible pain? Is love the name of deep understanding and mutual relationship between two souls or is it just intense desire for physical intimacy? Why does the first love invariably mean sacrifice which is against social and Nature's laws? Why don't people get selfless love in return to their selfless love for me? Why don't people again embark on the journey of love after getting cheated once?

Well most of us will not be able to answer these questions in our life time. But fact is today love has died to its premature death. It is not love any more it is more than love more often or not. Love can wait but sometime other things can’t wait….RIGHT….

The other face is what I have seen is common in today world is that we kill our love story rather than others and we give it name of “breakup”. Some time it is mutual, as we are too mature to decide about our life and we know all about life. Some time it is done by one single person as he or she is not any more comfortable with the relationship or with the second person. The time has changes, person has changed and ever they don’t love each other anymore. So that part end in breakup. In the end you realize all the love is based on one simple pillar that is yourself comfortableness. You don’t love that person; you just make yourself believe that you love her. But do all the love story is like same? Are all love stories are fake?

Answer is NO but the major portion will say yes. But one thing is for sure most of us will never know what love is? Our definition might be seeing each other, understanding each other, talking to each other. Well you ask yourself does love is only this. It is more that this simple and stupid things. It is when you know you care for someone more than for yourself, you are willing to change yourself without even saying to her, you know you may not get her but you don’t want to lose the single movement with her. The love is strange feeling, you can’t get her but still you can’t stop yourself from loving her.

One thing I might put focus on is you don’t have to break everything to fix something. You might up regretting it. You only find one upon a time a person who can understand you with even your single word.

One of my friends who are always falls in love with someone or other one to me some time just said to me one thing. No relationship is perfect these days as we overlook the fact that what we have, always put more focus what we don’t have. Relationship is like that if you want to focus on good thing you will get the right thing but if you focus on bad thing then your ship is definitely on rocks.

P.S.: I don’t know about love very much, but I think what sadden me is people in search of perfect love sometime leave those people behind who love them most. Some time you have to create your own perfect story rather than searching for perfect story.

The girl who once loved me... Part 1.....

“Tere dar par sanam chale aaye, tuu na aaya sanam hum chale aaye….”

I am only listing this songs these days.

I knew she is far away from me, but still why I can’t try to meet her? I have been asking this question from myself since the day she has left. But still I can’t gather the courage to go and meet her. She never gave me his new no. and I knew few of her friends but they also not helped me. Only way to keep tracking about her was facebook. Funny how she used to hate facebook and don’t use to update his facebook profile. But now this is the only place where I can find her. Her new update, new photo and other source, I kept seeing all those picture daily, reading his update daily but still have not gathered the courage to update my comment on it.

It has been almost one Month since I have seen her, heard her voice and yet nothing has changed in my life. The emptiness she let in me can’t be filled by any other one. She always knew that, then also she never bothered to call me once or at least send me SMS. Why things has changed so much in last one month even I could not answer to myself. We always knew things will end but never knew it will end this way. The day she left the college I kept planning how we can be in touch thought facebook, twitter or skype but nothing of that sort of thing happened. How can you keep in touch with a person who does not want to be in touch with you?

Time kept flowing away as fast it could; I got busy with my placement plan and as far she was concerned I still knew nothing about what she is up to except he random facebook update. I was always thinking about her and could not plan anything except her. My friends tried to get me out of her syndrome but I did not helped, I found myself feeling odd in her party. This entire thing again reminded how good she used to make me feel, she was only one whom I was more comfortable being myself. Slowly everyone stopped calling me in the party and again I was left with me and her memories. Whenever I felt like missing her, I visited the places we used to be together. From library, canteen to every other random place where she used to take me, now I could easily relate with everything. I used to hate visiting all these places with her because of his habit of not purchasing anything but still keep looking after things for hours. But now I easily go to shop to pick up thing she used to like from books to songs. But does this all affect her any way or anyhow.

 “Zindagi pukarti rahi, hum peche bhagte rahe,

Bus tera sath na mila aur hum kudh ko manate rahe”….

Is that how the college love stories end. I could not find the answer of my pain. It is because I am too much in love with her or it is because she does not remember me anymore. This thought shaken me up and start saying to myself, she love me but don’t get time to call me. My only wish was to meet her once to know what she is thinking about US. I hope I met her once more to tell without him I am so alone in this big world.

To be continu……..

Emotions and Love….

As I have talking to my sister yesterday and I realized how things have changed in past few years. I just forgot his wedding anniversary date. I realize it and just wished her and just asked few question from myself after sitting in my room. Where are all those little happiness and emotions have gone these day in all the relations as I see my sister complaining me for forgetting his anniversary.

As I started analyzing the last one year of mine and people around me, I didn’t find the answer or I was just looking for more question rather than answer. Funnily enough I have in this situation before. Well being youngest child in any family always helps. You are exempted form lots of responsibility and even your mistakes are not taken as seriously as it should have been. So I led me to a situation where take lot of things granted and think it will happen automatically. I forget lots of friend’s birthday, anniversary and party timing. But the best part is that they never complain and I never explain.

If you ask me, love is most difficult part in any emotion or relation either with friends, family or with anyone else, and it does play havoc with ego, emotions. But, to truly be happy, one must be able to love someone taking away the good, bad and ugly from than person. And that requires that I am able to do some good amount of thinking, re-assess what decisions I took and how differently I could have done things. They might be the smallest of small things, but if it has affected me, and warranted a look over it in these times, then it sure is important.

Understanding people around is again something which requires time for me. I have noticed that many a times, I end up assuming what the other person would have wanted to me understand rather than just understand what they said. And if they do not say anything, I have learnt to ask. I think this is one of the most important things which I need to instill in myself. It is a tedious process, I have begun the same, but I know analyzing my thinking and actions are the only way to go about it

life sometime shows diff. color....

Life & etc………..

For me last few days have been most disorganized days in my life. I don’t know how to describe this part but in the reality it is simple to put your thought in words. I was thinking, it has been almost first six month in job what I have done, how much I have learned and where I want to go in my life?

These are the some question which usually plays the hockey match in mind. I am not able to decide which side I am in the life. There is one side which is happy go lucky attitude I have been carrying my whole life from my birth till day. It does not mean I am not serious about life and profession but it just that I don’t want to be a person who live his life only for earn money and realize how I have missed small things in life. But there is other way of this coin also, if you have achieved something in life or want to achieve to become successful, you have to become some sort of serious person regarding your personal and professional life. You can never assume because you do all you work people will notice your work, that’s not the case these days.

There are days when I find more motivation to work hard but there are also days when I want to run away from this hard and fast city. The balance which I have been able to maintain to get the best out of me is just seemed to be missing for a movement. Even this whole blog was just because I was not able to figure it out what I will write about.

“Kuch alfaz khoye hai maine kahi bolne me,

Kuch soch meri ruk si kahi gayi hai kisi baat pe,

Koi baat bhi thi thodi si uljhi meri dimag me,

Kuch mere dil bhi tha kisi jajbaat me,

Kuch to baat hai iss mausam me,

Main bhi samajh nahi pa raha ho mere khayalat ko”

Just trying hard to maintain the balance about love, life and etc…..

Love : "End of perfect story"

Last Sunday I watched “Rockstar” and it was super movie by Imtiaz Ali. Sometime I feel he is the only one who has been able to define the changing face of romance in Indian cinema. Well let’s go back to my original point, “the end of perfect love story”.

In the 80 and 90’s there was a time when a love story used to be perfect in movies. Whatever you do in 2 ½ hours of movie it didn’t matter but it should always have the happy ending and right should win. I am not saying it was wrong but my point is doing all the time same thing make it boring. Does the entire love story have to perfect then only we can call them as love story?

I don’t think so and most of would agree with me on that point. I like Mr. SRK to fight all the odds in DDLG to win his love in the film and I think that was the last perfect love story I have seen on the big screen. Now we are seeing change in the movies, every one life and even in love story.

If you look at now day’s cinema I think it has left behind the days of perfect love story. Look at All the movies of Imtiaz Ali they all have not been perfect love story. Let’s take the example of Rockstar it was unusual love story. Both were unexpressive about their love, they know about their love, likes and dislikes but still they were not ready to believe in it. I don’t know how people realize it love but I do know either its love or it’s not. It didn’t mean love is all about getting what you want sometime you also love someone whom you cannot get in life. There is also love for my friends, family and others also.

Love is not measured on the time they spend together; they care for each other but something beyond that. I know it is not a perfect definition for love story but yet it is quite close. If you love someone you are more than happy to see her or him happy even if that make you cry. I know it sound filmi and bookish but that’s how love works in the end. You will never know the reason.

I know some people might be upset by the end of the perfect love story but I am happy. Now love story is beyond the things you want to do. It is more about the thing you like to do in the end. In my life I have seen quite few love stories as a perfect love maybe one day I will find that. But still I think one day the trend of perfect love story will come back.

Fragrance of “togetherness”...Ek collage ka zamana tha

With the passage of time evrything changes,dresses, schoolbags,classes, friends etc…..and as we grow up we come across many phases which leaves a remarkable impact in our life. But the biggest tragedy is that past is past , it never turns back ,we can just feel it fragrance in form of remembrance.


For me the best part of one’s life is college life I think it’s the golden phase after 10 years sitting in an office thinking about the time spent with your loving friends, those days would never come back going down the memory lane we will think about the time when we almost cried and laughed together sitting alone was not our types that was only in bathrooms we sat

Alone jokes apart

That bunking classes and canteen gosips will be no more after the college life . The most fascinating part was that we eagerly waited for the collage off, and when it happened we use to come to collage just for enjoyment

We will miss our faculty, the dronacharyas who tried their level best to make us AARJUNA but their dreams never taste the reality it was our patient right to enter the staff room( as our teachers use to say this), which will never happen with the boss cabin.

I just remember this few line which can better represent my feelings:

Ek collage ka zamana tha ,Khusiyo ka khajana tha,


Chahat chand ko pane kit hi, Dil titliyo ka deewana tha….


Khabar na thi subaho ki , na shamo ka thikana tha


Thak haar kar aana collage se , par ghumne bhi jana tha.


Wo barish me bheegna , har mausam suhana tha,


Har jagah aapne sathi the , har rishta nibhana tha,


Gam ki jubaan na hoti thi , na jhakhmo ka paimana tha ,


Rone ki wajah na thi, aur na hi hasne ka bahana tha


Ab nai rahi wo zindagi…. Aisa apna collage ka jamana tha ………

So before this days pass away , just enjoy at the fullest…… go crazy……

Behave like mad …….do whatever ur heart says , live ur life upto the fullest mark , because once this days will pass , will never come back……

Wishing u all the best ……

Raj Tripathi


Mba 2nd year, IEC-CET

I hate numbers ....But I still want it...

That day proved to be the toughest day for me , when reports cards were distributed, with a remark that they have to be submitted along with parents sign the next day. Initiating from the unit test marks to arithematical equations , number were the one I hated most, the reason was that I never got them as other and myself would like to be.

I still remember I was one among the toppers from downside during my school days , and it felt a little relaxed also as no teacher ever asked a question to me as they were fully assured of not getting the answer for me, it was wastage of time to ask and that wastage was reflected in numbers when the marks were used to be announced.


"Jinhe hum bhulna chahe , wo aksar yaad aate hai"

And the same proved to me regarding numbers the more I wanted to go away from numbers the more they followed me in my life.

With the passage of time , the mind changed and I started studying, it felt nice to give answers as it cater the girls attraction in the class, teachers started to recognize me, expectations arose, exams arrived and more time invested in studies but results were the same, numbers were still far away from me. As the time came when the importance of numbers in life increases but mine was going the opposite lane. it was declining, what I scored was just opposite to my friends (75-57).The biggest tragedy was that I scored the same numbers at two important milestones of my life and yet my friends where asking for party for those number as well and you know what hurts more that after my passing they started grading system.

After graduation I decided to fulfill the dream of my parents (not mine)to pursue post graduation (CANNOT MENTION COURSE)from a PREMIER INSTITUTE.

The good luck still followed me before the results were out I was counted among one of the studious students, later on the scenario changed.That baba( T P) also cant help me who was known as jack of all subjects ranging from logs to economics all was in vain.

By the time I have realized that numbers really holds an important position in ones life as companies are coming for campus placements and I am below the eligibility criteria….

Still in search of numbers………

Raj tripathi


Mba, 2nd year, Iec cet