Friday, February 28, 2014

The end Game

Well it seems to be an end is near, no matter how much I deny it or fight again it. But the reality is the finally we are breaking up. After all the love we shared, all the hate we put on each other, all the gifts, all the good, bad and ugly movement we shared will become a memory of past not because they have gone, just because we both have decided to more on. Someone said to me that today people relationship don’t die because of death, but it die due to people let it die; they don’t do anything to keep it alive.

We also did the same thing, I tried to kill my part of relationship and you did your part. Now we both are free from each other spell, we both can do what we want to do, we don’t have to care about each other wish, life, like and dislike. We can move on in life, a thing which we thought will be difficult, but see today also I am writing, even though I thought that without you it would not be possible. Today I realize maybe we never loved each other, because love story never end like this. Our love story had share of good thing, but we never accepted each other weakness, you never understood what I feel like, you never given a deed to my feelings. We carried just a relationship to such a long, just because sake of it. Now I know why in India people are still in marriage even though they are not happy in it, some cheat, some lie but they think this is there rest blame it on god. But no one has courage to say that I made a mistake but I will not continue with it.

I know that might be from tomorrow I will again start missing you, with each passing day I will want to come back to your life, I have done that in past as well, that is why I have lost myself. But this time I don’t want it, if there is no love then it a waste relationship and I don’t want to carry a baggage of a dead relationship on my shoulder. It took time part of me to realize that, you are just with me because I am you habit not your love. A habit which can be replace with something, a habit which can be controlled, a habit which can be labeled as bad when things go wrong, I don’t want to a habit. I wanted to be loved but now I don’t think that would be possible. With each day, you will become more hard towards me, and I will become more weak toward you.

I don't want any favors, but I want to be loved.

PS: A break up letter written by someone who just broke up with GF.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Mikel: Who divide all chelsea fc Fan

If you ever ask any Chelsea fc fan who is the best player in the field, Mikel name will be always come last from fans. He is the player who divides the opinion, something he is useless and does nothing and other think he is important cog in the wheel of Chelsea fc. I am one of those who feel he is one the most consistent performer of our team. He might not be giving 9/10 performance but still on average he will be 7/10 each match. There is nothing spectacular in his work, a midfielder who takes ball and pass it, who does all the dirty work and when team win other get credit but when team losses finger are point at him.

In last few years I think he has matured in his role, I think new system suits him more than the old Chelsea fc system. This season I have seen Mikel playing the higher up in the field, his passing much better from last few seasons and also he is avoiding picking needless cards. You can any team member about last two Europe win who was most important player, they will keep Mikel in top 3 player. In munich he was the best player on the field, apart from scoring goal he did everything. Protecting backline, keeping ball in tight situation these has been keys to his good run in team.  Problem sometime Mikel face is same as Makalale, he was never appreciated by the fan of real Madrid because he never used to score for them. Every winning trophy was credited to scorer or creator but never to him, but after leaving him once Real Madrid team faced decline, then fans realize the importance of him. May the same case if with him, people will only appreciate his presence in team when he will not be in the team.

He has been at Chelsea fc for so long, that he knows what it takes to be successful at top club, in a year or two he will one of senior pro in team who can guide and help the juniors. For me Mikel presence can be felt in the team when team start to playing at his pace and you realize that he never plays to the pace of match, but he make other team to play at his pace which is his biggest asset. Jose has got Mikel at right and at peak of his career like he did with Makalale, he can just bring best out of him and create his team around him. He is already having a great Idea about his best starting 11 in the team. Already he sees Mikel and Ramirez as the best pairing for the midfielder in the team.

I don’t know what future has in hold for him, maybe he will not be Chelsea fc next year, but I think his presence will be felt in team once he is not around. May be all fan are too much spoilt by the like Xavi or Inesta, but there are players like mikel who love to stop other team from playing and help his team playing, not playing himself. I think he is the most selfless player in team I have seen in the long time. He is one the best pro around.

P.S. I was so happy for him when he scored against the Darby. If he can score the goals from Set peaces then Chelsea fc has a great threat from the set peace in any match.