‘I once dreamed about…’

What I dreamed about once, I asked myself. Almost everything it replied to me. From being a teacher to from being a sports person, from being a farmer to being a actor. I dream of being everything in life which actually doesn’t happen. So right now I am sitting on my office desk on working Saturday, yes I know it sucks to work on Saturday but then also I am going to write about the things I dreamed about once.

Teacher: From class 1^st to class 4^th, I only wanted to be teacher. That was the best profession in my eyes at that time. You come in class at your own will and leave in 45 min., if you wish to teach you could or else you can say, ‘head down student I have some work’. You can scold anyone, give marks anyone you want and live the life as you wants. Whereas being student is boring thing, daily same dress, early morning bath, have to be on time to school and worst was HOMEWORK. Teachers has to give homework, where as student has to DO homework. But my life played tricks with me, as my family gives me something else to ponder upon which is given below.

Doctor: Being only son of family always makes you darling the eyes of everyone. But it gives you added tension as well if your elder sister is quite studious. After dropping my idea of being teacher, I picked up choice of being doctor because my elder sister wanted to be. I always wanted to beat her in marks, in everything we did. We were so competitive in life at that time. But chemistry subject betrayed me big time. I never was able to understand why there is chemical equation and how we can balance it. Why misbalance it first place if we have to balance it. This was not it in biology my spelling mistake was like big thing. One time my mom saw my answer sheet there was only red dot below every spelling because it was not correct. Finally in 9^th std. I gave up on dream of being doctor as well. Because rather than being a bad doctor I choose to be a good patient. My one friend consoled me, ‘if we all become doctor, then who will be patient. So we choose to be patient’.

CA: This was the actually one which I tried to become. I choose commerce after 10^th and I realized how few options are left to me. But then also I was happy with my choice, in the end I get rid of chemistry and biology.  CA was different kind of exp. For me, I worked hard for six month for its CPT exam. At that time I used to send 12 hours studying and rest of time in coaching and sleeping. In short means no life was left in me. And fortunately or unfortunately I failed in exam by 2 marks. That was really painful for few days; I could not eat, sleep and talk to people. I thought people are laughing at me, ‘look he can’t even clear CPT’. Those where dark days in my life, but somehow I realized look what I am doing in life. I had no life for last 6 month and if I took this forward I would end having no life for almost 5 to 7 years in minimum. Really I need that, no was the answer from my mind. I was that close to become but finally chose something else.

Coming back to today, these are few dreams of my life from my career point of view which I wanted to become. Some time I look back at my life and I think what would have been my life, if I have chosen any one of those career.

This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda

Goodbye 2012 or welcome 2013 ????

I am not sure how to see this, either say goodbye to 2012 or say welcome to 2013. In either case one is leaving and one is coming in the life. There are few things which we will leave behind and some things we are waiting in the next year. Life is strange; we don’t often value the things we have in life until that is gone. Every year is the same case, once it comes to end then we realize its real value in our life and importance of it.

This year has been important in my life, on professional front as well on personal front. Life is professional front has become more stabilize and now I can put focus on other things in life. People fear about their future and how they are planning about their life accordingly, but I have been talking all things year by year. Till now it has been awesome in the professional front, I am learning daily new thing about my profession and also about myself. The best thing I learned about myself I was so restricted in my learning throughout all those year. Now I am doing things which were out of league in last few years. I could now thought to do those things, not because it was difficult but because I thought it could not be done. But now after trying it, now I know it can be done. And that is the amazing part of it.

This year I again realized how much I hate shopping in life. If you send me inside a mall and give me option of buying a jeans for myself, I would end up getting nothing myself. The more I see things, often it up confusing me rather than helping me. It makes my choice making more difficult because clothing is something which I don’t put my focus on. As one of my friends pointed out to me recently that you have to enjoy the process of it, then you’re buying process will be easier. I hope it does next year to me.

With each new phone I tend to realize, how much amazing was my last phone and also how amazing phone I need next phone. Currently I am using Samsung Galxay Ace S580, it is amazing phone it terms of feature but still somehow I still miss my Nokia phone. I not sure might be because of Battery life but I remember few things which I can do over there and not here and what I need in next phone. Life for this phone my basic criteria was a camera with flash phone. For next I have already drawn few lines, hope next year will bring thins phone much faster in my life and with greater peace.

Socially connected is the most irritating thing for me this year, with each passing day facebook is becoming more irritating to me. They just taking all of us for granted, because the way they are changing their privacy policy is out of my head. For example the Instagram in his new policy said, they can use any one photo update after this date for any of the ads or any commercial process. That is most insane thing I heard, say I put up a photo which can be used to promote Alcohol then they can use it. Even if I am against the Alcohol, that’s what I am getting as a common used from this.

If last year has been all about being friends in life, then this year turn about to all about being UNFRIEND in life. Often in life we call lots of people our friend but they turn out to not, it happened with me also. I believed in lots of people but not all of them have been true to me or I have been true with him. Life moves on, people move on but personally speaking I am just trying to make sure I know who my friend is and who are not.

Welcoming any year is difficult, but there has to be some good reasons for that. In next post I will post how would I am looking forward to 2013, till then wait for HAPPY NEW YEAR.

I am an ANGRY INDIAN

I opened my facebook, twitter today and read the news of girl who died after battling of her life. There was strange feeling of anger in me, a pain which I can’t explain and a sadness which can’t be consoled. But when I saw there were thousands of people like me who are angry, sad and more so frustrated with system. We are ANGRY INDIAN, those who chose to do nothing but only being angry on every other thing which doesn’t please us.

I am Angry...

For us protest means changing facebook status, twitter status, sharing pictures and sometime sharing our views as well. Who cared about that girl for these days, we all cared for our self. We read the news, talked about it and changed our profile picture and protested. That was it from our parts, we all is angry that what is govt. doing? Why they are not doing anything for us? Why they keep silent on everything and just keep pushing public away?

My question is why should they? Have we done our part in democracy? Our part was to vote and vote for right person not for any party and any person. I don’t have any party and any person but I hate being told that you have to vote this person only and you don’t have a choice. We all had a choice but we choose not to use it, we didn’t VOTE included me. I didn’t vote because there was no good candidate but that made the bad candidate win also. So, how could blame the others for my own choices. I made the choice to make chargesheet holders MLA and MP, then why now I am blaming them for doing nothing.

The best part we do is being angry. We become angry on price rise, we become angry on not getting job but we never think that we are also part of system which chooses not to change. We all hate changes in our life, and that has been our order of life.

What I will do as a Indian after this case. I will protest on facebook, twitter and other social media platform. Apart from that will criticize govt. for nothing and will skip our part from this grand debate. We all are part of this country and our responsibility is to build the country and not to let is destroy itself in the anger. And biggest problem is we all want a hero who can solve our problems and country also. We want more Gandhi, Nehru or Subhash Chandra bose, but no one wants to be one of them because it is selfless job.

I am no longer angry with others, I am angry with myself. It is my choices which have to be better for any change in future. I have to vote; I have to fulfill my social responsibility and also try to be a role model for our younger ones. In the age of facebook and twitter we chose to say things and rather than do things.

P.S.: This anger is good if canalized but bad if we do damage to our self.